As you may know the Reformed Chaplain has been dormant for just about 2 months now. My pen has been silent for a reason. On May 3 of this year, Jessica and I became mother and daddy of a beautiful new addition to our family, Angie.
Now, two full months have just about passed this date. My role as Husband to a spectacular wife has now been further enhanced with a new position: Daddy. At a recent BBQ, I had a good friend ask me: So, how is parenthood? I had to stop for a second and think.
My answer: "Well, I think back on my days of being single and then getting married on April 23. I woke up the same. I still drove the same. I still brushed my teeth. Not much 'felt' different, but by the end of the day...I had assumed a new responsibility. I clearly remember looking at my ring on my finger that evening and thinking, "so, now I'm married. Nice." I kind'a felt the same. No major shift in my personality or thinking with Angie. I know that God has prepared me up to this point in order to be a God-glorifying parent. It just fits."
I know most people want a colorful and joyous exposition of romanticized lights, sounds and tears of joy. (For that go to my wife's blog, :) ) But for me, my concern was : Will I be a good Dad? Will I be able to adapt to Angie...and vice-versa?
All this anxiety is wrapped into one word: Providence. God orchestrates every event in life. Good or Bad for His glory. I know that God shapes my life and is shaping my life right now. The things that I grow anxious about or think are ridiculous, I find myself months or years later, rejoicing in the fact that God prepared me for this or that through those events. Will I be the 'Father's Day Champion' this year, and live a blameless upright life? I doubt it, but I know with faith in Jesus Christ as my provider, I can get pretty darn close.
So, for all you new dads or new 'husbands'...God has equipped you and prepared you to do this 'new position'...don't fret or become anxious about how good you will be or how bad you will be. Follow Christ, ask for His wisdom. Trust his guidance.